I am back

After 5 month's torture. I am back. What I have been through? Can't say I've been any wiser.
But I did hit by the reality and actually get myself a CRASH!

I am not an aggressive guy. On the contrary, I avoid conflict, I hate chaos. What put me into misery is, I also hate to be left behind. I want to out grow people in a quiet way.
I never win a fight, I ain't mean enough.

The car crash happened on 12/10.
Sometimes I just want to let go of everything. Does that mean I don't want to live?